Recovery

I must say the light at the end of this DCIS tunnel is getting brighter, praise God. I am feeling more like myself for the first time in months. I think I am finally free of that abscess after my surgeon cut out those infected pieces at the last surgery. Praying that I don’t get any re-occurrences of infection. Feeling much better from this flu-like infection that had me sick all week and caused me to cancel my birthday party. My energy is increasing but I have been sleeping 10 hours a night. Tomorrow is my first day back to work in 3 weeks. God be with me and help me through this next week.

Out with the old sickness and in with the new health. I am on the Tamoxifen as of last Thursday. The studies show much success in inhibiting the re-occurrence of DCIS after taking this for 5 years. The cancer I had was hormone based so the Tamoxifen is used to intervene in blocking those receptor sites. God gave me a clean bill of health in that I had the Index Score of 0 on the genetic study so I did not need to have radiation. I will have a check-up in three months with a mammogram. I will update then on my progress, but I have faith that this chapter in my life is over. I claim victory in Jesus.

I just order the Nutribullet RX. I have the Nutribullet and have been making smoothies for myself and my mom for about 3 months since I was diagnosed. I use frozen blueberries, peaches, strawberries, mango and pineapple. Then fresh ripe bananas, kale and spinach. Almond milk and vanilla Greek yogurt is my base and protein. I add in turmeric, chia seeds, honey and cinnamon for their nutritional value. The RX bullet makes hot soups in 7 minutes out of fresh vegetable. I am excited to get it and start making fresh hot soups.

New goals for the New Year: I want to run/walk for 500 miles and bike for 2000 miles in 2015. I want to run in Beach to Bay 2015 and the Rock and Roll Half Marathon in San Antonio. I want to ride the whole 65 miles in Conquer the Coast in September, God willing. As in the wise words of ACDC “I’m back! I’m back in the saddle again!”

DCIS over and out?

Had my surgery this past Tuesday the 16th. Felt more pain this time around. I am hoping to get some results today. I am going to see my hematologist today as well. See what she advises. I really think that the extra white blood cells helped me feel better this time around, though today I am feeling achy and slightly nauseated. This too shall pass. I have faith and I’ve been through this before.

I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I think I have made it through and now looking forward to recovery. I want to be more active in 2015 since the DCIS slowed me down for the past 3 months. I will come back with a vengeance and compete more in 2015 God willing.

I want to thank all my family, friends and acquaintances who prayed for me during this cancer period of my life. I feel so blessed to be uplifted during DCIS. Cancer ain’t got nothing on God. God is so good. Merry Christmas

The countdown to surgery

Hello everyone. Yes I have been hard at work, making plans and trying to remain control of my life. I have been infection free for they past 5 days as far as I can tell, no antibiotics since Monday. I have seen a full case load this week, praise God. I was very tired from all the hard work and getting ahead of the shopping. Mailed off all my Christmas cards last night. I have CEU hours to finish before the surgery and more shopping ahead for this week. The Christmas party is next Saturday along with Texas A&M graduation. Jason and my 12 year anniversary is next Sunday the 14th. We plan to have a nice celebration.

I have plans of trying to exercise more this week. I don’t think I’ll reach my goal of 2K for 2014. I need less than 150 miles, but don’t think I can do this in 10 days, I will try to chip away at that number. Life is good. God is even better.

Remember that Jesus is the reason for the season. Merry Christmas!

Happy Thanksgiving

I have been silent for a while. Life has been okay and I have been working through the discomfort I have been feeling. I don’t know if the yuckiness is from left over infection or side effects of the antibiotics. I will have to wait to see.

I am thankful today for being able to share Thanksgiving with my family. I am thankful for my improving health. I am thankful that I have a wonderful husband and caring daughter. My dogs are awesome. I have a great job doing what I love. I am thankful that I have God to share my burdens and I am never alone. Life is good.

I have a goal to complete (whether I feel good or not) of running/biking/walking through 2000 miles this year. I thought I would blow this goal away prior to biopsies and surgeries. I have less than 150 miles to go and two weeks to complete them before my DCIS surgery. I am praying that I can do this with God’s help. My goal for next year is 3000 miles and to run Beach to Bay, ride Conquer the Coast and as many 5K and 10K races that I can. I will be in beast mode and beat this whole health issues I have had to deal with. God is greater and I put my faith in Him.

Back to the daily grind

It feels good to get back to work and start organizing those things that need tending. There are many things I need to get done before my surgery. I want to get caught up with my psychological report writing and complete my professional development hours between now and surgery date of the 16th of December. I have been blessed that I enjoy what I do for a living. Seeing patients and keeping busy make me happy.

I went for a short bike ride with my daughter this afternoon. It was short and sweet. Felt tired but I was able to do it, praise God. I hope to build myself up over the next few weeks to help my body get stronger again and fight off fatigue and infections. I miss my long runs and bike rides. God willing 2015 will be a year of recovery and new exercise goals. I hope I get a new bike for Christmas too.

Honestly, I really don’t think about my cancer much. I know I have to have surgery to make sure the docs removed all the affected tissue, but it is just going through the motions. I am more scared of infection after the surgery and the weakness I feel. I am praying that I will be able to do my usual holiday exercises after this ordeal. That is, with God’s help and the shot my hematologist promised to give me before surgery to beef up my bone marrow into producing more white cells. I usually go for a 5 mile run as a gift to myself for my birthday on January the first. I hope I can do something, if not 5 miles, some type of exercise post surgery.

To all those that are tired, weak and heavy laden, Jesus is alive and there for you. Just ask and know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are being heard and tended too. There is no illness, sin, grief or regret bigger than God. God bless.

Feeling myself today!

My gosh, I love the way I feel today. My husband is telling me to take it easy, but there are so many things to do. I want to get so much done in the next month before my DCIS surgery. I am pumped! I want to exercise. I want to run, walk and ride. I know, not all today. I will try to walk the dogs with J today. Even though he does not want me too. It feels so good to be hyper again. Dear God I don’t want this feeling to end. I am excited for Thanksgiving and Christmas. I love my husband, daughter, mother and dogs. All of these have made my recovery bearable. Thank you Lord for these people in my life.

I have faith that this period of my life will pass and I will come back with a vengeance, with God’s help. I want to bike a good 35 – 65 miles at a time in 2015. I want to run another 10k or half marathon next year as well as  the 6th leg of Beach to Bay again (that is a relay half marathon).  Life is too short to just sit on the couch and cry about what is not right in our life. Cancer can kiss my ass, cause I am not going to let it get me down. I will do what I have to do to live!!!! And live I shall with the grace of God!

Hematology/Oncology

Yay, went to visit my hematologist/oncologist today. I was able to see Dr. Yvonne Manalo who treated me 5 years ago for my alien blood (neutropineia low white blood cells). I had a bone marrow biopsy (second one in 10 years) and many tests that showed that that was the way God made me. I wanted to see her again because I knew another hem/onc would want to run tests again.

I was excited about this visit because every time I have had a surgical procedure, be it biopsy or surgery for my DCIS, I feel like I was given kryptonite and lose my energy and gusto for life. It makes me vulnerable to infection as we saw last week and I do not recovery quickly from surgical procedures. I wanted Dr. Manalo to check if there was something wrong with my blood. I brought her the past 2 months blood work and then historical labs from the past 3 years to show the pattern. She explained that my lymphocytes were low and that was causing me to feel drained. She ordered more blood work and was going to check my Iron as well. Dr. Manalo gave me hope for the next surgery. She said that if my white cells was low after she ran another blood count before the surgery, she would give me a shot that would stimulate my bone marrow to produce more. That made me feel hopeful for the next time.

We will visit after the surgery to discuss the hormone pill I will be prescribed to diminish the chance of DCIS recurrence. I will also talk to her about what the chances are if I choose not to take the pill of re-occurrence. Well, I’ll keep y’all posted. God bless.

Here in the hospital again

Hello strangers! I over did it last week. Too many patients and wore myself down. On Thursday, I started hurting all over and my breasts were swollen that evening. I was running a fever. I went to bed and woke up worse but had rescheduled patients for Friday that had already been rescheduled from DCIS surgery. So took my Tylenol, put on my big girl panties and went in. Saw my first patient for psych testing and second one was a no show. I called my surgeon and nurse told me to come in.

The nurse took a look at the left breast biopsy site which by this time looked engorged from trying to dry out from breast feeding and called the doctor for a script of Bactim. I was told to use the heating pad and hot showers and rest. Okay went home and stayed calm watching TV. My daughter came home and I decided to bathe while she could stay with the dogs. (Yes my mix and Newfoundland are equally rascally if left alone. They could be another inspiration for another blog.) When I disrobe, I see this small black scab over the biopsy site just asking me to pick it off. So I did. Whoa! This dark syrupy blood/ pus fountain begins oozing out all over me, the floor, my hands. I scramble for some tissue and that gets soaked. I grab a bath towel and catch it. When it stopped I expressed as much as I could which was quite a bit. Miracle, some of the swelling went down. Praise God! So I shower and then more comes out. After cleaning the bathroom with Clorox and bag and throw the infectious towel away, I lay back down.

Fever was lower, but still there. I took the Bactrim as prescribed. By Saturday, after a I continued to express yucky fluid every couple of hours, I still had reddening and swelling. So I decide to consult my step sister, who is a nurse and EMT on how to make a warm compress. We messaged and she tells me to go to the hospital. An infection like that should be treated with IV antibiotics. That made me nervous. I wake and tell my husband. He tells me to call the doctor. I do and doctor told me to continue on bactrim and lay flat on my back till late afternoon and if not better, go to the surgical hospital to be admitted. My sweet husband Jason took a Sharpie and dotted a tattoo of the outer boundaries of redness.

Did as doctor ordered. Fever went down with bactrim but redness was an inch passed all marked boundaries. We went to the hospital. I was admitted and given penicillin and clendomycin IV. This was the first time I tried penicillin since I was supposed to be allergic to it. Yippee! No reaction. By Sunday redness was receding and the swelling was going away.

I was blessed to have my husband with me through those scary hours of whether I was going to go into anaphylaxis or not. Thank you Jesus and Jason for being there. I was blessed by family and friends who came to so me and make me laugh. To my sister and brother-in-law, thank you for keeping my daughter. I greatly appreciate that. God bless you. And to my mother, thank you for babysitting those dogs! Love you all.

Now waiting to see if doctor will let me go home. Prayers again please. God bless.