Feeling myself today!

My gosh, I love the way I feel today. My husband is telling me to take it easy, but there are so many things to do. I want to get so much done in the next month before my DCIS surgery. I am pumped! I want to exercise. I want to run, walk and ride. I know, not all today. I will try to walk the dogs with J today. Even though he does not want me too. It feels so good to be hyper again. Dear God I don’t want this feeling to end. I am excited for Thanksgiving and Christmas. I love my husband, daughter, mother and dogs. All of these have made my recovery bearable. Thank you Lord for these people in my life.

I have faith that this period of my life will pass and I will come back with a vengeance, with God’s help. I want to bike a good 35 – 65 miles at a time in 2015. I want to run another 10k or half marathon next year as well as  the 6th leg of Beach to Bay again (that is a relay half marathon).  Life is too short to just sit on the couch and cry about what is not right in our life. Cancer can kiss my ass, cause I am not going to let it get me down. I will do what I have to do to live!!!! And live I shall with the grace of God!

Here in the hospital again

Hello strangers! I over did it last week. Too many patients and wore myself down. On Thursday, I started hurting all over and my breasts were swollen that evening. I was running a fever. I went to bed and woke up worse but had rescheduled patients for Friday that had already been rescheduled from DCIS surgery. So took my Tylenol, put on my big girl panties and went in. Saw my first patient for psych testing and second one was a no show. I called my surgeon and nurse told me to come in.

The nurse took a look at the left breast biopsy site which by this time looked engorged from trying to dry out from breast feeding and called the doctor for a script of Bactim. I was told to use the heating pad and hot showers and rest. Okay went home and stayed calm watching TV. My daughter came home and I decided to bathe while she could stay with the dogs. (Yes my mix and Newfoundland are equally rascally if left alone. They could be another inspiration for another blog.) When I disrobe, I see this small black scab over the biopsy site just asking me to pick it off. So I did. Whoa! This dark syrupy blood/ pus fountain begins oozing out all over me, the floor, my hands. I scramble for some tissue and that gets soaked. I grab a bath towel and catch it. When it stopped I expressed as much as I could which was quite a bit. Miracle, some of the swelling went down. Praise God! So I shower and then more comes out. After cleaning the bathroom with Clorox and bag and throw the infectious towel away, I lay back down.

Fever was lower, but still there. I took the Bactrim as prescribed. By Saturday, after a I continued to express yucky fluid every couple of hours, I still had reddening and swelling. So I decide to consult my step sister, who is a nurse and EMT on how to make a warm compress. We messaged and she tells me to go to the hospital. An infection like that should be treated with IV antibiotics. That made me nervous. I wake and tell my husband. He tells me to call the doctor. I do and doctor told me to continue on bactrim and lay flat on my back till late afternoon and if not better, go to the surgical hospital to be admitted. My sweet husband Jason took a Sharpie and dotted a tattoo of the outer boundaries of redness.

Did as doctor ordered. Fever went down with bactrim but redness was an inch passed all marked boundaries. We went to the hospital. I was admitted and given penicillin and clendomycin IV. This was the first time I tried penicillin since I was supposed to be allergic to it. Yippee! No reaction. By Sunday redness was receding and the swelling was going away.

I was blessed to have my husband with me through those scary hours of whether I was going to go into anaphylaxis or not. Thank you Jesus and Jason for being there. I was blessed by family and friends who came to so me and make me laugh. To my sister and brother-in-law, thank you for keeping my daughter. I greatly appreciate that. God bless you. And to my mother, thank you for babysitting those dogs! Love you all.

Now waiting to see if doctor will let me go home. Prayers again please. God bless.

November 2

I want to praise God for a glorious weekend. I don’t know why it takes me time to heal, but it does, so I am not at a 100% yet. I was able to accomplish all I set out to do for this weekend. Took my daughter shopping for her 10th birthday. Me and the husband splurged on her and it felt so good. She bought all that she wanted including a Toothless Dragon (from Build-a-Bear), Mountain Bike, riding gloves and all the trimming, and finally new clothes. What a blessing God has given me with my daughter. I thank God every day for her. She is the light of my life. My husband has been very compassionate. He tells me to rest and reminds me to take it easy. I have the yin to my yang in him. God bless them both. My mother has been keeping an eye on me and reminding me to eat to gain strength for the next surgery date. I can honestly say, the the DCIS has brought my already close nit family even closer. God is so good.

After a very long nap, it was off to the festivities for the Day of the Dead, downtown. Oh my gosh, there were so many people. We had not anticipated the crowds. The city was beautifully decorated with jewelry and art booths, pinatas, face painting and food. Everything was skulls, flowers, crosses and jewels in the remembrance of our loved ones that have died but live forever in our heart. The music was awesome and the food delicious. They would hand print the design of your choice for personalized T-shirts. It will definitely be on the calendar for next year to dress up in full “Dia de los Muertos” fashion. We had a very nice time and thank God for being so good. That’s all for now. God bless.

God news and Bad news

Whew! What a roller coaster ride with this Ductal Carcinoma In Situ has been. First I’d like to glorify my Lord and Master, Jesus Christ for keeping me in his protection. I got the call yesterday about my biopsy results. Good news, they said it was a fibroid and benign. Yay!!! Great news. But, (yeah but) the Radiological Doctor felt that the results were not congruous with what the MRI was showing, so I need to have that part surgically removed to be sure. Okay, I am human so I am going to vent here. I just had a biopsy that did not confirm or deny anything?!?!  This procedure was for nothing because of error?!?! Just set up the surgery already and get it over with. Feeling better now that I got that off my chest.

The good news, the genetic test for cancer predictability is a go. The testing site called me today and said that my insurance would cover 80% and I would be responsible for $775 (20%). Wait, hold on, what? Then she said that I qualified for financial assistance to conduct the test and that I would owe $0. Praise God. That was a a load off me and my family. Now the wait. The test takes 14 days, then my radiation oncologist will call me to talk about the results. This will indicate whether I need radiation or not. Super happy about this. God is good in helping me by providing the resources needed during this delicate time.

Another good news is that my surgeon is looking at surgery in 3 weeks. It seems that the bleeding issue I had yesterday would cause a large hematoma. He wants to wait for the bruising to come out before cutting in me again. Yippee! That will put the surgery near Thanksgiving so I will have that week to heal.

Besides the rant on human error, I am thankful that I am able to share my journey during this difficult time. My family has been super supportive and my friends have been wonderful. I praise God for another day and another opportunity to continue His work. Life is good. God bless.

Cancer fighting breakfast

Well praise God I woke this morning practicing belly breathing for five minutes before getting out of bed, reading emails, hugging my kid and my big dog. Our little dog was quite a bed hog last night.

I decided to tweak some recipes that I found on Pinterest for cancer fighting foods. I made a smoothie for the family, but made mine with extra ingredients.
Power Greens/Berry Smoothie
1 cup almond milk ( I use low sugar)
1 handful power greens (kale, spinach and other greens)
1-1/2 ripe bananas
2 tablespoons Greek yogurt
1/2 cup of frozen mixed berries
1 tablespoon organic honey
1 teaspoon tumeric (I used 2 and it was too much)
Ice

Directions: put all these things in Magic Bullet and had my breakfast. Saved quite a bit for next couple of days.

Next I had my wonderful husband make fruit flavored water.
He put half a gallon of spring water in a pitcher. Then added half a cucumber, 1 lemon, 8 mint leaves. It tastes refreshing from the fridge.

I’m trying to steer away from processed foods and adding more greens in my and my families diet.

Now I put a pot of 15 beans in the crockpot.
Soaked the beans over night
Put them in crockpot with large chicken broth, can of organic diced tomatoes, and two cans of water. Salted and peppered.

I cooked 4 slices if unhealthy bacon. Put that in the pot.

Used the bacon grease to cook onions to translucent and two garlic cloves.

Then I had my hubby chop up that power greens, about two cups. Then I added that two the frying pan. Salted and peppered that.

Now I placed that all in my crockpot. This is going to cook for 9 hours. We’ll see how this comes out later.

Now to rest for a while then chores before church. Hope to get in a family bike ride to regain my endurance after surgery and before to next one.

Trying to take some control even though my life is in chaos. Praise God for another day!

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